After 3 weeks, some “Teeny” fallout from my last post and a lot of prayer, I’ve decided to write a follow up to the “You’re Only As Free As You Allow Yourself To Be” post.
To begin, no one should ever assume that I’m being passive aggressive or posting things to hurt people that have hurt me. That’s not my style and my friends and family know that if I have a problem with anything, I come directly to them. I’m just NOT a passive aggressive person and I have no agenda to use my blog as a weapon. I write passionately with intense feeling because that is what is REAL. I’m very transparent about my life. How could any of my readers understand the GRAVITY of my revelations and victories if they don’t understand the INTENSITY of my pain and hurt, my faults and weaknesses?
I write my posts as though the people that have hurt me don’t read them. They might and I have very strong opinions about this unhealthy behavior, but I write as if they won’t. I am going to write freely. I will never mention these people by name or give details about their identity, but I’m not going to let my FEAR of these people (who have a history of unhealthy behaviors) dictate to me what I can share with my friends, family and followers. I wont let their intimidation and emotional manipulation determine how I live my life anymore. I will protect their identity, but I won’t let my fear keep me from talking about what I’ve learned. My blog is a place for me to communicate the things on my heart and to help others positively! I don’t use my blog to hurt people. It is a place for me to be transparent. It is a place that is healing for me. If you confess things openly you are more likely to have your moments of repentance and victory stick! So I’ll try, with everything I am, to keep to the things I’ve confessed to do.
For clarification, my previous post is about me. If you read it a second and third time, that is really the only conclusion you can come to. My feelings are filled with regret, hurt, anger and grief but what it comes down to is this… The only person I can change, is me. I made decisions to change myself and how I view my trials. Rather than be upset about those who have hurt me, I can just move on. They obviously have and that’s great. What an AMAZING revelation that was! Everyone deserves to be loved no matter what they’ve done. It really doesn’t matter how I’m feeling. What DOES matter is that I choose to be free from these feelings as well as the people that have invoked them. I choose to forgive and move on with my life. I choose to let these people be happy and be happy for them. I choose to let go.
I now have healthy relationships with some of the people I refer to in my posts. They know that some of the things I mention may refer to things that happened between us. Fortunately, we have repentance and healing, and our relationships are healthy and encouraging. They have changed and I have changed. The past is in the past and trust has been restored. They understand that I don’t dredge things up to make them look bad and they know I will protect their identity. I’m practicing my beliefs and the things I’ve learned from wise people when I’m navigating difficult situations and difficult relationships. I have a healthier life, restored relationships and overall general happiness because of it. The evidence reflects that I’m definitely doing something right.
So! The last post was a celebration for a major victory in my life to be shared with people who want the same thing in their life. This post is for anyone who may have misunderstood.
P.S. If anyone doesn’t like what I have to say or doesn’t agree with me, that’s completely understandable. We are all so different. I do ask that you utilize discretion and refrain from taking it out on my family and friends. They really have nothing to do with my personal feelings.
Thanks! Hope you all have a beautiful, stress free weekend! ❤