Be Happy & Be Happy For One Another

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After 3 weeks, some “Teeny” fallout from my last post and a lot of prayer, I’ve decided to write a follow up to the “You’re Only As Free As You Allow Yourself To Be” post. 

To begin, no one should ever assume that I’m being passive aggressive or posting things to hurt people that have hurt me.  That’s not my style and my friends and family know that if I have a problem with anything, I come directly to them.  I’m just NOT a passive aggressive person and I have no agenda to use my blog as a weapon.  I write passionately with intense feeling because that is what is REAL.  I’m very transparent about my life.  How could any of my readers understand the GRAVITY of my revelations and victories if they don’t understand the INTENSITY of my pain and hurt, my faults and weaknesses? 

I write my posts as though the people that have hurt me don’t read them.  They might and I have very strong opinions about this unhealthy behavior, but I write as if they won’t.  I am going to write freely. I will never mention these people by name or give details about their identity, but I’m not going to let my FEAR of these people (who have a history of unhealthy behaviors) dictate to me what I can share with my friends, family and followers.  I wont let their intimidation and emotional manipulation determine how I live my life anymore.  I will protect their identity, but I won’t let my fear keep me from talking about what I’ve learned.  My blog is a place for me to communicate the things on my heart and to help others positively!  I don’t use my blog to hurt people.  It is a place for me to be transparent.  It is a place that is healing for me.  If you confess things openly you are more likely to have your moments of repentance and victory stick!  So I’ll try, with everything I am, to keep to the things I’ve confessed to do.

For clarification, my previous post is about me.  If you read it a second and third time, that is really the only conclusion you can come to.  My feelings are filled with regret, hurt, anger and grief but what it comes down to is this… The only person I can change, is me.  I made decisions to change myself and how I view my trials.  Rather than be upset about those who have hurt me, I can just move on.  They obviously have and that’s great.  What an AMAZING revelation that was!  Everyone deserves to be loved no matter what they’ve done.  It really doesn’t matter how I’m feeling.  What DOES matter is that I choose to be free from these feelings as well as the people that have invoked them.  I choose to forgive and move on with my life.  I choose to let these people be happy and be happy for them.  I choose to let go.

I now have healthy relationships with some of the people I refer to in my posts.  They know that some of the things I mention may refer to things that happened between us.  Fortunately, we have repentance and healing, and our relationships are healthy and encouraging.  They have changed and I have changed.  The past is in the past and trust has been restored.  They understand that I don’t dredge things up to make them look bad and they know I will protect their identity.  I’m practicing my beliefs and the things I’ve learned from wise people when I’m navigating difficult situations and difficult relationships.  I have a healthier life, restored relationships and overall general happiness because of it.  The evidence reflects that I’m definitely doing something right.

So!  The last post was a celebration for a major victory in my life to be shared with people who want the same thing in their life.  This post is for anyone who may have misunderstood.

P.S.  If anyone doesn’t like what I have to say or doesn’t agree with me, that’s completely understandable.  We are all so different.  I do ask that you utilize discretion and refrain from taking it out on my family and friends.  They really have nothing to do with my personal feelings.

Thanks!  Hope you all have a beautiful, stress free weekend! ❤ 

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The Serendipitious Nap

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My dad is standing on the far left. Whoever took this picture was obviously partaking in the festivities. LOL

Naps are not known for their chance to provide a person with big life moments, so I’m surprised by a fairly fortuitous one. During my nap yesterday, I had a dream about my deceased father that was so real and was SO TOTALLY 1989.  My father and his bowling buddies had won a huge national bowling tournament.  Their embroidered bowling jackets smelled of smoke and cheap beer and my dad’s comb-over was typically askew.  The whole league listened as they announced that they were going to follow their dreams and go PRO.  I could even smell the oil on the lanes!  When I started to wake up I thought “I forgot that my dad is alive, why do I always think he’s dead?”  Then reality settled in “Oh, wait, its the other way around.”  I have this confusion nearly every time I have a dream about him.  Normally, I’m not saddened by this.  It is what it is.  But this time, I felt it.  It was unpleasant and a bit disturbing.

INSERT IMPORTANT EXPOSITION:  On, Father’s Day, I had a huge revelation about mourning my father and wrote a blog entry entitled “You’re Not Really Gone”.  (You can read my blog entry HERE.)

My 4yo came in and his cute little voice cheered me up.  I reached for my phone and the first thing I saw was a TWEET from James Hance, a very well known artist of Geek Culture, and it totally made my day.  He said “@ZeroFrizzThirty “You’re Not Really Gone” was a beautiful read <3″  Talk about serendipity!  He had tweeted that to me while I was having that dream.  I kid you not!  I was in the middle of that dream when he tweeted it and I saw it as soon as I awoke.  I was instantly reminded of that Father’s Day revelation and was moved that a person I respect and admire would give me such a lovely piece of encouragement.  He really made my day.

I believe in God and that He cares about the little things.  He cares deeply and I am grateful.

James Hance can be found on Facebook at Relentlessly Cheerful Art by James Hance and on Twitter @JimJeroo  He is, in my opinion, one of the best artists of all time (not an exaggeration) and he is genuinely a great person.  His art will lift your spirits!

He sells original artwork on Etsy too. ❤

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Hilarious Mothers Day Happenings

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My 4yo is making me look like the WORST mom ever! For Mothers Day he wanted to draw me a Walking Dead picture. He commissioned his father to do the work and it was completed under John’s direction.

Yes…that is a mushroom cloud in the background.   John is a soldier with big muscles and a machine gun and the baby is his “older” brother.  Dad is totally missing (must not have survived the first wave). Zombies apparently come in two types, humanoid and cockroach.  Could the Apocalypse get any more TERRIFYING?!?!

John is still making changes…he just ran out of the room to get a special crayon saying “Wet pants, coming up!”

Now I’m going to have peed pants in my Mothers Day Picture.

Sigh… Happy Mothers Day to me!

For the record…my kids have never seen The Walking Dead…we’ve told him that it’s a bad show with Zombies and is too scary for him.

Bright side, I’m totally kicking butt in this new world!

My Calling…

My Calling

 

LOVE 

Everybody needs love. Some would say we all deserve love, but I believe that we ‘need’ it. We cannot survive without it. Most of the world’s worst problems come from a lack of love for each other. Some of the seemingly worst people you run into, or hear about have no love because they received none. Sure, some are just sick. Some people had all the love in the world and they grew up selfish jerks. But if you take a troubled child, and love them appropriately, they ARE more likely to overcome.

I love you guys. I feel like my purpose in life is to love. My beliefs and values encourage this, but that hasn’t stopped 100’s of millions of ‘believing’ people to act out of hatred, contempt and judgement. It goes beyond my beliefs and is confirmed by the scientific fact that LOVE WORKS! I am devoted to be a fighter and a lover of people. I am a woman of healthy boundaries and I will not compromise my beliefs or values, but I won’t use them as an excuse to withhold my love. In fact, I will use them to justify it.

My Calling… I will fight bravely against Fear. I will speak with Virtuous Compassion. I will love Relentlessly! – This is the person I want to be!

I hope you all will help me in being that person. You have all given me so much. Now, hug yourself for me, DAG-NIT! 

Here are some articles about the importance of love and healthy human touch… I don’t encourage you to go around touching people. You will probably get punched in the throat. I will also say if you touch a baby you might get arrested. But science and spirituality tell us that human touch and love are essential for our survival. Consider yourself loved-on today! 

http://www.livestrong.com/article/72120-effect-human-contact-newborn-babies/

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/maia-szalavitz/how-orphanages-kill-babie_b_549608.html

http://www.livescience.com/21778-early-neglect-alters-kids-brains.html

The Most Interesting Family…Stay Hairy My Friends

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Have a great weekend everyone!

Couch Coinage For Comic Con Campaign!

Carrie Bland Comic ConThere are 313.9 million people living in the United States of America and nearly 7 billlion  humans on this little piece of rock we call Terra…Earth…whatever.  We only need 1000 people to donate $2.50 in Couch Coinage in order to reach our goal of $2500 and send one of Geek Culture’s best loved women to San Diego Comic Con 2013.  We have until Tuesday, July 16th to raise this money and make Carrie Bland’s (@Keeba13) dream come true! Let’s prove that Couch Coinage can make a huge difference and generosity is alive and well!

Questions you might be asking yourself right now:

1. “Who is Carrie Bland?”

Carrie is one the most amazingly talented GeekMoms. She is respected as a top Gaming Girl and is the Community Manager for PMS Clan Halo Division. Respect! A Whovian, a Zombie Apocalypse lover, Supernatural addict, and did I mention she loves tacos? Carrie’s an Amazing GeekMom who is so dope, that she crafts-up Legend of Zelda Link arm cuffs for her daughter and cosplay’s some hardcore Stormtrooper action! What lucky kids ❤

http://www.gofundme.com/22sbj0

Check her out on Twitter… @Keeba13 !

2. “What the heck is Couch Coinage?”

Couch Coinage is the Coinage you find in your couch!  I haven’t done any research, but my guess is that the average person vacuums/cleans out their couch once a year.  Its a nice little treasure to find $2.50 in coins among the cereal, hair, crumbs and the God-Only-Knows-What-Putrescence-That-Is.

3. “Why should I give my Couch Coinage to you?”

I truly believe that Couch Coinage can be used for something bigger than just a 12 oz coke out of the vending machine!  If it wasn’t important enough to have it for the year it sat between the cushions and some crusted cheerios, why keep it to ourselves now? Use its simplicity to do something totally AWESOME, like sending Carrie on a well deserved dream trip for Geeks!

4. “Is your Donation Site safe?”

GoFundMe.com uses Paypal to accept donations which is extremely safe. Here’s a quote from their website, “In terms of online security, all payments are securely processed using industry-standard Secure Socket Layer encryption, or SSL.” For more information on GoFundMe Safety & Security , click here.

Creating a PayPal Account is easy, secure and one of the safest ways to purchase items online or make charitable donations.  It is used by thousands of websites and makes donating online a SNAP!  The best part is…ITS FREE to create an account!  Click here for more information about PayPal!

Just Click on the Donate button below or visit the link on our virtual flyer (pictured below).  If you love the idea of Couch Coinage making a difference, PLEASE REBLOG THIS!  We are trying to get as much exposure as possible.  Share it on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest and any other site you can please. Carrie is the sweetest person and this is our gift to her!  I desperately want this for her, will you please help us make it happen? Thank you everyone! ❤

 

DONATE!!!!!!       

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Father’s… We love You!

Father's Day

 

We hope you Daddy’s are all having a wonderful Day today! Love and Blessings ❤

You Matter!

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This is for you, my friend.  I love you and you matter ❤

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